Well,
the holiday for all the mother’s in the world is upon us. For most people, this is a
time to spend with your mothers and give them the respect they deserve on one special day.
For me however, this day brings with it nothing but sorrow.
Not many people know this about me, but my mother passed away 5 years ago losing a bout
with cancer. There isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t miss every single
thing about her. She was the nicest lady I’ve ever known in my 19 years of existence.
Yet, as nice as she was, she was placed through the trying situation of dealing with
cancer of the lung for an entire year. That year was one of the most difficult years of my
life. I could visually see my mother getting worse and worse off by the day, yet she never
tried to let on to me what she was feeling. I would try to help her do things while she
was ill, and she would tell me she could do it and just smile from ear to ear. Heh,
that’s a smile I’ll never forget. I remember times during those months of her
sickness where I would hurry home from school and run up to her bedroom to be with her. I
spent as much time with her as I possibly could…never did I think that those times
would be the last I did. I even asked her, "You’re not giving up on me are you
mom?". She shook her head no and smiled, but I knew.
Then that day came, December 11th 1996. A day that will be forever etched into
the back of my mind. I was returning home after a music concert I was performing it (a
concert I didn’t want to go to, but my mom told me to). As my brother and I pulled up
the house, something in my gut didn’t feel right. Couldn’t quite place my hand
on it. As we went to the door, I was met with my aunts and my father. They spoke, but I
don’t remember what they said…I could get the message from their eyes. My heart
felt like it was ripped from my chest, and I felt like I couldn’t breathe. I lost not
only my mother that night, but the best friend I’ll ever have.
I’m not telling you this to make you depressed, or feel any sympathy for me. I just
want you to do ol Vig here a favor. On this Mother’s day, or any day for that matter,
hug you mother and tell her how much she means to you. If you can’t see her, call up
your mom and tell her how much you love her. It may seem like nothing when you do it, but
if you were in my place you would cherish every single memory you’ve ever had with
her. I would give anything to hold one more conversation with my mother, unfortunately
that can’t happen. But it’s still possible for you. So don’t take your
mother for granted, sure she may nag you and get on your nerves from time to time…but
would you truly be happy if she wasn’t there? I know I’m not. I guess this just
solidifies the saying, "You don’t know what you’ve got till its gone."
No truer words have ever been spoken…no truer words. |
